When he loved her, his love was as fierce as heavy snow burying a bow and sword; when he hated her, his hate was like a rasp grinding bone, leaving flesh and blood mangled.
“Xia Tingchan, it would be so much better if you were dead.”
One day, she truly died.
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“She’s just dead; it’s not like she broke up with me.”
“The day we had our big fallout, she slapped me. That was the first time she ever hit me. She made me feel pain, so I know she loves me.”
“Those who hate me cannot hurt me.”
—A Widower’s Diary
Reading Tips:
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The female lead died in the line of duty and has been dead since the first chapter. The main story ends with the male lead following her in death. The extras include an “if” storyline with a happy ending (HE).
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An overdose of atropine causes hallucinations and delirium; there are no sci-fi elements in this story. The male lead suffers from severe psychological issues after the female lead’s death.
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Dual perspective. The early stages focus heavily on the male lead’s perspective. As his condition worsens, the female lead in his hallucinations becomes increasingly real, and the proportion of her perspective increases.
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Non-virgin female lead, virgin male lead. A “dogblood” melodrama of intense love and hate.
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“…Those who hate me cannot hurt me” is quoted from Alai’s The Dust Settles.
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This is a fictional setting; please do not compare it to reality. For reference, the male lead in the current timeline lives in Western countries, while the “domestic” setting of the flashback timeline is inspired by Japan and South Korea.
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